schadenfreude

kie: old, stale-smelling room
kiel: i have a screaming headache.
kio: mitch miller : must be santa

this is more of a personal entry than an entertaining one, that is unless my pain entertains you. and it very well might. yay schadenfreude.

i don't get exctied about things. i'm a pretty laid-back guy. in fact, even while i watched this semester crumble way back when (see previous entries) i was still as bubbly as can be.

in the spirit of last week's ER, i'll go backwards through the past few days.

today i took an exam that i did not study for in the least. i am not exaggerating. the only preparation i did for this exam was frantic equation writing in the hour before the exam after i *again* failed to wake up to not one but *two* alarms.

i didn't study because i tried (i really tried!) the night before, but fell asleep at 12. luckily i had set an alarm for 4 am. see previous paragraph.

i didn't study before then because i had planned to study over the weekend and yesterday all day. i didn't plan the fact that the thermo project (due saturday), would take me all of thursday, friday,some of saturday and most of sunday, and monday til noon to finish. (might i add, this project is 10% of a grade in a 3-credit class). this left me completely exhausted monday.

note that i left out the fact that i did oklahoma saturday and sunday, which took up a grand total of 13 hours of the weekend. (the good news is i made like $200 in tips) significant, but not the entire weekend. that was plenty of time to study kinetics. and, might i add, learn the material that i missed from the last week of class (which i missed for variegated reasons, mainly my thermo assignment that was due that wednesday (1/6 of 15% of that course grade) and writing my molecular evolution paper/presentation and various other crap (read: babes in toyland).

also, saturday was my molecular evolution final, which, because of the thermo project (and the exam thursday) was a bit neglected, and that i didn't study a lick for either (again) cause i fell asleep (again) on my notes. i didn't wake up to either alarm, slept through the exam, and took it at 11:30 that day when it was scheduled at 9. the prof (generously) only docked it 10 points. i guess it could have been worse.

so i really neglected kinetics this semester. whatever grade i get (definitely a C or below) i really deserve. and the reason is clear. i am a bad student. i have very poor study habits. i can no longer not go to class, not study for exams, and somehow always come out on top. note: this has been the case for pretty much my whole life. in a way i'm kind of glad what happened happened, or else i never would have realized this. the best students, i've found, are not (necessarily) the smartest kids in the class, but the best studiers and the hardest workers. it has taken me much too long to realize this. i know i say this all the time, but this time i really mean it. things are going to change.

of course the question that comes to mind is do i give up something? well what's on the chopping block? 1) mental notes, 2) acting, 3) being a lazy, procrastinating idiot. one of these things has got to go. and i have to decide what i like better: singing with my friends, performing on stage, or sitting on my ass.

the way i see it, i can sit on my ass for years and years when i retire. and i need a good job in order to have a nice retirement. and i need good grades at school to get a good job (well, that's not all i need, but it sure would help).

to me, college is the transtition between childhood and the real world. and i am going to enjoy it as much as possible.

rules:

1) missing class is unacceptable for any reason.
2) starting assignments the night before is stupid.


so here i say to the entire internet (my site came up on google last week!) that it is your job to chastize me whenever i don't follow these rules, and to remind me what a terrible student i am.

thanks in advance.

fun holiday mp3s:
south park : merry fucking christmas
gayla peevee: i want a hippopotamus for christmas
snoop dogg and nate dogg: the night before christmas